Free of body, free of soul Part Six and news about Suezeeque

[rosywonder.livejournal.com]

Only two more parts left of this story. I do hope that those reading will enjoy them. Here's part six ...
http://archiveofourown.org/works/1550876

As I think I said a few days ago on the Canteen, Sue is now at home after her treatment. Luckily, the recovery from this kind of keyhole surgery of the liver is quicker than a full-scale resection would be, so let us hope she is up and doing her usual early morning walk and bird spotting routine very soon. Incidentally, I am aware that in this country the NHS is far from perfect, but at least we are spared from the experience of lying on a gurney whilst our doctor argues about our treatment with the Insurance Company? I don't mean to criticise, but really ....!

I didn't realise until now how much the illness, and in some cases, mortal illness of those we love can affect us. Visiting another friend in the last stages of lung cancer and finding out about Sue has affected me badly, more than I could have believed. I went for my usual session with PT at the gym and just couldn't do it. I began to feel that in some way my health was not deserved while others suffered so much. I am pretty much back to normal now, my usual reasonably happy self reasserting itself. Am I being pathetic, or just normal?

Comments

[mrua7.livejournal.com]

Glad Sue is home! And you're being very normal...it's like survivor's guilt.

Now I'm waiting for your full story to be done posting as I've only been able to read it in snippets and not on a regular basis. I'll have more comments then kiddo. Hang in there and go to your PT! I'm heading off for mine right now...but I can understand about not wanting to do it sometimes. It's helping, but it becomes tedious at times.

[rosywonder.livejournal.com]

Oh good, I am looking forward to your comments.

Yes, my PT Jim is both gorgeous and understanding as well as a slave driver of course. Thankfully I was back to my normal self this week, swinging the usual punches with the boxing and swinging the kettlebells round in ways you wouldn't want to know about.

Am still wondering why I'm so lucky though!!

[pactnmmt.livejournal.com]

I think what you have been through is normal. As we age and see our friends become frail or ill we become more aware of our own mortality or if we are healthy and our friends aren't I sometimes think we tend to feel guilty.

[rosywonder.livejournal.com]

I don't often post these sort of needy comments, but since I retired, perhaps I've had more time to dwell on mortality, one's own and others, as you say. I consider myself to be a very lucky girl, and perhaps I just need to make the most of things, for however long life allows me to!

Have you read the story? Would value your comments.

[pactnmmt.livejournal.com]

I have read the first three chapters and then got busy. Jim is going on a trip next week and I'm hoping to be able to sit down and immerse myself in your story and a few others I'm behind on. I want to be able to take the time to concentrate and give it the attention it deserves!

[rosywonder.livejournal.com]

Now I feel bad for pressurising you! Hope you are enjoying it and I appreciate you giving it time out of what sounds like your busy schedule! I am anxious to improve of course and would appreciate critical comments.

[lindafishes8.livejournal.com]

I hear you when you say you don't deserve your health while others are suffering. It's a kind of survivor's guilt and it's perfectly normal. I used to work on a cancer chemotherapy ward and saw this everyday with families and friends alike. It will pass but it's never easy.

Your MFU story continues to be amazing! Could hardly wait for this part! And a certain Russian avoiding Hut D? So believable. Can't wait to see how it all ends. I'm on pins and needles-again!

[rosywonder.livejournal.com]

It is not really like me as I am always berating my husband for not being positive about life! The gym helps me a lot and gives me a sense of wellbeing, so I will just keep plugging away and drawing inspiration from others!

So glad you are still enjoying the story. Ah yes, well you know that the Russian is skilled in avoiding unpleasant experiences . . . Will post the last episode next week and look forward to your comments.

[(Anonymous)]

Just normal, rosy.

[rosywonder.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I realise I was being a bit needy but you wonder about yourself sometimes.

[pactnmmt.livejournal.com]

LOL. No pressure at all, don't worry at all. Truth be told, I'm not really all that busy. It's just a case of making myself sit down long enough to be able to enjoy the story.

I love what I have read so far but you just couldn't leave Illya's hair alone lol

Hairporn

[rosywonder.livejournal.com]

Now, be honest, you wouldn't expect any less of me, would you? Sometimes I wonder about myself but somebody has to keep him in hand.

Glad you are enjoying the story nevertheless!

[glennagirl.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad to know that Sue is responding well and looking towards returning to her regular activities. It's good to know that our emotions can be an open invitation to prayer for those whose lives we value. Sometimes the sense of helplessness, or guilt, is an excellent conduit to a more useful and effective tool.
I am very behind on your story, but not for lack of interest. I've had a full plate and am still working through it. I'm looking forward to sitting down for a nice long read.

[rosywonder.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I do hope that things are gradually improving for you. Read the story when you have time - it will still be out there and I would value your comments.